not fabulous

I don’t know. I am just down. I did get my period on Friday and maybe that is why I was whiny last week and this week. I hate to fall back on the old “time-of-the-month” business as an excuse, but I just don’t have anything else pressing right now.

My middle son has now seen the therapist twice. She seems to think he just needs some behavior modification stuff. She is going to see him one more time and then see me and give me her feedback and suggestions. She is also going to talk to his school.

My teenager finished his first week of college! He came home over the weekend and spent one night with us. He isn’t having any problems yet. Thank goodness!

I had my first week of class as well. Since mine is only one day, although 3 hours long, there wasn’t a lot to be concerned about, the teacher is a great lecturer and very entertaining too. My grade will be 80% from 4 exams and 20% from a group presentation on genocide. She will assign our groups and our genocide, so I am worried about that. Are all genocides good to present on? Are some better than others? I know that some are better known than others.. Plus, the group grade is given to each member. I hate doing group stuff. And I hate relying on other people for my grade. And I hate doing presentations! I am full of negativity about this assignment. I will get more information on it this Friday I believe.

I went to co-op last week on Thursday, but I don’t feel like bothering with that right now. I got some food. Nothing special, just produce. Some weeks I feel more excitement about it than others. I am going again tomorrow, Thursday again. I didn’t go on Tuesday this week. There is anew assembly line way of sorting baskets and it takes fewer people and less time. I am not going to be needed twice a week at all. I may not even be needed once every week. If I only go every other week to sort, I am only going to get a basket those weeks too.

I am making sure I do laundry and dishes every day. I am trying to make sure I cook dinner every day. Household chores are boring. I haven’t been seeing my sister lately. I went to a couple of movies with my husband. Contraband and The Iron Lady. I was interested in seeing both, but not really in a mood for the theater. I wish we had waited and seen them on dvd or something. I am over the theater, I saw 26 movies in the theater last year. I want a break from it!

We are flat broke too. But hubby never agrees to not spend the money he wants to spend. So we saw movies instead of waiting and now I have to scrimp and freak out about paying our car tax.

I don’t know. I just feel like I am underneath everything. I want to be on top. Our finances are always tight after Christmas. Things will be better in March or April. They always are.

Oh! I am crocheting though. I am not doing anything fancy. just a basic sort of single or double stitch.  I have made 4 scarves and a hat. A beret type hat, not a beanie type. And a neck warmer. And I am working on a round baby blanket now. If anyone is actually interested, I can try to post pics. But, they are all pretty basic.  I do find the work calming and a little mindless. I can focus for a while on just making the stitches even and not tangling my yarn. It seems like a good way to pass the time. I do it a lot while watching stuff on tv with my husband. He has a lot more tv interests than me. Plus, lately, we watch a lot off movies on tv. I am not all that interested in some of them. And, I have a hard time with movies on tv. They usually do not occupy all of my attention. I need something else to do anyway. I have always surfed the net or read stories on my laptop while watching. This crocheting is a more productive use of that time, maybe.

My Christmas stuff is still all in the house and not in the basement. I need to do something about that, but I am not motivated to bother. I need to vacuum. I need to mop. I need to clean the showers. I need to exercise. Speaking of which, I was down another pound at weight watchers last week. Hopefully, I can be down another this week.

Keeping my fingers crossed.

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