I can’t get into everything about my mother right now. BUT, I do want to throw my main difficulty out there for consumption:
I have this odd relationship with her now. Sometimes, I am the daughter who was abused as a child. Sometimes, I am the daughter who got away from all of that and made herself a better life. Sometimes, I am the mother. I feel extra awkward and annoyed and irritated by being put in the role of acting as the mother in our relationship. My mother has a lot of problems. Some of those problems manifest themselves in ways that make her seem like a child sometimes. Incapable of making decisions. Incapable of taking care of herself. Extra emotional and prone to tears. Flighty. Immature. Irresponsible. It completely freaks me out to have her be this way when she is staying at my house.