My period is 10 days late. I do not suspect I am pregnant. My husband had a vasectomy over 7 years ago. But, the waiting game is agonizing and annoying. I am 39 years old. My mother was in the throws of hot flashes at 41. Could I be having early menopause symptoms? I feel down. I feel whiny. I do not feel creative or inspired. Does anyone know any “sure” signs of pre-menopause?
I had school back on Wednesday. It was dull as dirt. I love class, I really do. And I adore learning. But, the classes I have are not teaching me anything thus far. Well, Latin is a little. We did learn the first two verb conjugation forms on Wednesday. But, really, it isn’t very exciting yet. It’s probably just me and my doldrums.
I have been making a bunch of Karl Urban icons for livejournal. Those who read this on lj already know that 😉 I have been loving the little artistic burst of energy, but it seems to have worn off. Karl is still beautiful, I still have about 400 pictures I haven’t iconed yet, and I know there is interest in new ones. I just can’t seem to get in the mood to fool with it.
I have had a few days when I wasn’t having to do class reading and I could have been reading for myself, fiction or something. But I haven’t even been in the mood for that. I have been watching some tv on dvd. I finished the second season of Doctor Who. David Tennant was a wonderful Doctor. I love Christopher Eccleston more still, but David was a very worthy replacement. It is the nature of The Doctor to be renewed, so I can’t feel too cheated by Eccleston leaving. I do wish he had been able to stay longer than one season though. The finale of season two was heartbreaking. I cried! Over tv. I felt a little foolish, but I guess it was a testament to the quality of writing and acting in that show. Before going on to season three, I am watching season one of Torchwood. I enjoy the episodes a lot. The plots and the action and the writing. But I find that I do not like the characters themselves very much. I like Jack, he is unusual and interesting and a mystery to be solved. I sort of like Ianto, but only sort of. I see a lot of potential for him to be the emotional center of the group. The one who shows his emotions and has a heart and can be broken. But he is also very underdeveloped at this point and I don’t know if he will fulfill the potential. Gwen and Owen and Tosh bother me. I thought that Gwen would be a tie between the group and the world. Someone who would make the group more aware of right and wrong, maybe a moral compass. But she isn’t. Her morals have been compromised already and only 6 or so episodes in. Owen was a supreme ass in the first three episodes. Now he has mellowed a bit, but I do not believe he is a “good” guy. He seems quite selfish. Tosh is a mess. She isn’t very well developed, but what we have seen of her is pretty unstable and easily manipulated. We’ll finish it up in a couple of days and then I can get to season three of Doctor Who.
I have much more to say about tv than anything else. What a sad state of affairs.
My daughter is acting out. I mean, a lot. She is tearing things up. Writing on surfaces that she shouldn’t. Cutting holes in everything. Taping together everything. Picking fights with her brother. Screaming back at me when she is reprimanded. She is just beiong obnoxious. I didn’t expect this. Maybe I should have, but I didn’t and now I am in the midst of this catastrophe with her. She is almost 8. Is it a phase that happens at this age? Could she be hormonal? I hope not! I have two cousins who got their first period when they were 9. NINE! If Punkingirl is going to lean that direction, would she start having hormone issues around now? It would be a bit ironic if I am starting my end cycle when she is gearing up for her beginning cycle.
I have Dragon*Con coming up next weekend. It is a huge sci-fi/fantasy convention. I am going to get to see Leonard Nimoy and William Shatner! Plus, Patrick Stewart and Kate Mulgrew. Tom Felton and Felicia Day. A bunch of other stars. Authors, too! Plus, we stay at a hotel downtown during the Con. So, away from home and the little kids, like a vacation. We are taking our teen with us this time. He and the husband will be gaming a lot. I am going to be alone and footloose a good deal of the time. I need to see if I can hook up with some people. Or not. I could just wander around and people watch between things I have planned. I do love going.
I especially love going to the panels for writers. I keep hoping I’ll get enough out of those to actually write the book I have in my head. I started it, but didn’t get much done. Maybe 1/5? Maybe not that much. I had a plot, a beginning and end, some middle stuff. But not nearly enough middle stuff to make it a novel. I’ll try again this year. I sent my story off early this month to two people to have them look over it and critique it for me. But, they both have busy lives and haven’t had a chance to do much with it yet and I haven’t gotten a critique. A day or two ago I sent it to a third person for the same. I was hoping to have some advice or something before Con time so I could have a fresh place to jump from when I am there. But, I might just see if someone at Con can do it too. I wonder how much you need written to turn in for perusal to a real publisher?
So, that’s me lately. Not much to say. Love you all though!