Okay. So, I have a few anxiety issues. I don’t remember if I have talked about it here before or not. One of my big fears is going into a new situation. The first day of school, for instance.
Last night, I got myself way too nervous and worked up about school. I didn’t sleep well. Then, this morning, I got overwhelmed at the prospect of all I needed to do before I left the house this morning.
I went back to bed instead of going to school.
I can’t even explain it adequately. It was like the thought of getting dinner in the crockpot, washing my hair, and being dressed for the winter weather was just too much. Having to go to a new class at 8am, a class I am nervous about anyway, was just… huge to me. And my 9:30am class was super scary too. So, I just stayed home.
I suck. I need to really work through this “fear of new stuff” thing and figure out how to just suck it up and do it. I feel badly about not going in today. First day is important. I know the teachers said a bunch of things I need to know. I missed all of that. I didn’t get to scope out my chosen desk space. When I get there on Wednesday, someone may have already claimed the space I prefer! I should have gone.
Anyway. There you go. I failed at going to school today.