I have not been talking about the healthy goals lately. I have been tracking my points each week and as I recall I have barely made it each time. But I am not feeling it. I am eating a lot less than usual most days. And my clothes are definitely fitting looser. But I am not exercising. I have been forgetting to drink water a lot of days. I haven’t been in the mood to even care about fruits and veggies.
I think my attitude for this has reached a plateau. I am not really giving up. I am still making some effort. I am just not in the right frame of mind. Summer is here and it is hot outside. I don’t like to be hot. The kids only have a few days of school left. I am not really thrilled about spending all day every day with them. I love them, but they are a lot of energy. More energy than I have and often more than I can deal with. And I am still kind of off since my school finished. I was left with a depressed feeling about my grades. I know I tried to do better. But I failed to do as well as I wanted and it left me unhappy. I can’t seem to get past that.
That is part of why my blogging has been so low lately. I can hardly think of anything to talk about. And the effort to do so is just not there. I know I need to be eating regular meals and trying to get in the right food groups. But I just can’t care. I am in a really apathetic place these days. I am sorry about that. I know that some people actually look for an update here pretty often. I don’t like letting those folks down. but this blogging thing is tougher than it looks. And recently, the healthy goals are too.
How not into this am I right now? My 300th Wimbittworld post was last week, the Co-op week 17 one. I didn’t even notice.
In summary: I am not stopping the healthy goals. I have just been in a poor place motivationally lately. I am working on it.