Blah. I don’t mind the cold too much. I have plenty of warm clothes. I have several jackets and coats. Lots of hats and scarves and gloves. I even have thigh-high socks for keeping my legs toasty under my skirts.
But I really don’t like the wind. I don’t like the wet and icy rain. And I really don’t like the snow. And why the hell are we having snow happen this early in the winter in Georgia? We hardly get snow here at all and now we have it in mid-December? There were lots and lots of flurries on Sunday. Now we have small amounts of them again today. Do Not Want!
I had final exams early last week. Grades were entered on Sunday. I made an “A” in Latin and a “B” in Science. I am so relieved! I worked pretty hard for those. Science is never easy for me and Latin is much harder this year than last year. I have already signed up for next semester’s classes. I have “Origins of Great Traditions”, which is a History course, “Literary Genre”, which is an English course and the required texts strongly imply we will be studying Shakespeare’s plays as films, and the last semester I have to take of Latin. I am so happy to see the end of Latin on the horizon. I have enjoyed Latin. Really. Ancient Roman history has had a real presence in class and it is fascinating. I have also loved the way we have learned so much about the origins of words we use today. But I have had nothing but trouble with the declensions and conjugations.
I think my depression is lightening a bit. I have made a real effort to feel better. And I have struggled to fix my sleep problems. I kept being unable to sleep at night and then I was too exhausted in the day and took naps. I forced myself to stave off the naps. I stayed up all day and then all night and then all day again. I was so frakking tired! I was cranky and bitchy and lazy. but I went to bed in the evening and I slept all night. That was about 10 days ago? I have gone to bed every night since and slept all night long. I have gotten up on the weekdays at 6:30am with the kids and stayed awake all day long. No naps. Over the weekend, I slept in. I slept until about 8:30 on Saturday and until 10:30 on Sunday. But I still went to bed at a reasonable hour Sunday night and got up at 6:30 Monday morning and stayed up all day. I think having a decent sleep schedule is helping the depression. I don’t think I ever noticed that a sleep problem could be affecting my depression. I mean, I knew that sleeping too much could be a side-effect of depression, but this is different. This is having enough sleep and having the right sleep times and awake times and having it alleviate the symptoms of depression. I am feeling pretty decent.
I am not feeling a holiday mood though. No Christmas tree yet at our house. The kids are disappointed. We will get the tree up eventually, but I really could not care less about the whole thing, I am not a fan of forced holiday joviality. And I am not feeling any natural joviality about it. We are too poor for many gifts and we have too many relatives that just do not understand that at all and we are forced to buy for them; obliged to buy for them. I guess it isn’t really forced, but it is very expected and can not be avoided. I am just not feeling it.
I wrote a little piece of fiction. It involves two characters from a tv show that I watch. I am a little embarrassed to have done it. But, I was feeling creative and the story was playing out in my head already, like a daydream. So, I wrote it down and then typed it up in Word. It was porn-ful. I wish the characters were in a romantic relationship on the sho, but they are not and never will be. So I made one up for them. Even though it is embarrassing, it felt good to do it. I reckon any writing is better than no writing. Even if it didn’t turn into a blog entry 🙂
hugs folks, and thanks for your patience when I am not able to get myself to post.